Struggling…

It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog here, it’s usually the last thing on my mind although waking up at 3am all these thoughts flew into my head. I’m still busy drawing away but really my mental health hasn’t been great. Losing my business of 17 years and having that daily place where I would chat to strangers along with people I came to know very well has taken its toll. Adjusting to a new slower paced way of life has not been an easy transition. I’ve always  kept myself busy while working, I was always good and creating tasks to carry out so I was never sat around not doing anything. One of the biggest things I’ve noticed in the last few months is my inability to focus, drawings have been taking me longer as I’ve become very easily distracted, wandering around the house and not quite knowing why, during the day at least. Once I hit 10pm I find I can sit there and stare at the screen for hours on end losing tracking of time. 

Seeing the state of the world has also had a heavy impact on my mental health. The ongoing climate crisis and seeing wildfires and floods along with people losing their homes. I take breaks from the news but I don’t want to ignore these things happening in the world, it’s just working out the balance. The divide amongst people when it comes to so many aspects of news, such as Covid, jabs, brexit, migration etc and seeing fellow people at each other’s throats albeit online mostly makes my heart feel sad. I’m 36 and I worry what seeing this does to children as well as other young adults, some no doubt nervous to even mention it to their parents or friends for fear of being labelled a “snowflake”. I’ve been called it, I just own it, we’re in an age where we are allowed to feel sensitive and shouldn’t be shamed for it. Is this a ramble? Probably but that’s fine. We should be able to ramble away at what’s bothering us, I don’t get heaps of people reading my blogs but shouting into the void is still very therapeutic.

I hope you’re all having positive days and keeping safe and well. I thank you for taking time to read 🙏